I'm afraid I'll always be looking to the future and not enjoying today.
Last night really made me think of that when all of us were covered in blankets on one bed and laughing till we cried.
I'll miss that.
There I go again.
About Me
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Monday, January 26, 2009
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Old news.
I just replanned out my life.
The only difference is who I'm marrying.
Also:
Someone wants me dead.
Whats new?
haha
Today was so good.
I'm excited to play my game tomorrow.
And spend more time with the love of my life.
The only difference is who I'm marrying.
Also:
Someone wants me dead.
Whats new?
haha
Today was so good.
I'm excited to play my game tomorrow.
And spend more time with the love of my life.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Happiness.
As much as I complain.
As much as I've been through.
As much as everything gets to me.
I enjoy my life.
And I enjoy my boyfriend.
As much as I've been through.
As much as everything gets to me.
I enjoy my life.
And I enjoy my boyfriend.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Past?
Lee:
"all i have to say (but really it's God):
Leviticus 18:22
The Bible says "hey don't do that", therefore, no CHRISTIAN should ever in any way, shape, or form, support the act of homosexuality.
BY ALL MEANS: Christians should support the people that claim to be homosexuals.
HOWEVER: We should NEVER support the act of homosexuality.
Love the sinner, hate the sin."
Reminds me of who led me to Christianity in the first place.
I miss hearing that side of him every day.
Giant blog about gay marriages and how I absolutely do not support them.
I might post it later.
"all i have to say (but really it's God):
Leviticus 18:22
The Bible says "hey don't do that", therefore, no CHRISTIAN should ever in any way, shape, or form, support the act of homosexuality.
BY ALL MEANS: Christians should support the people that claim to be homosexuals.
HOWEVER: We should NEVER support the act of homosexuality.
Love the sinner, hate the sin."
Reminds me of who led me to Christianity in the first place.
I miss hearing that side of him every day.
Giant blog about gay marriages and how I absolutely do not support them.
I might post it later.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
I went to Holland this weekend to see my third Anathallo show with Candis.
We met up with a lot of other kids and I also got to meet some of her high school friends.
I don't know what it was but this show was especially good. Something about having Ross and Candis with me and knowing that Emily and Max were across the state enjoying themselves just as much. I don't know.
It felt so right standing close enough to Ross that his body was constantly brushing up against mine.
And seeing Can so happy to see her other friends.
And standing close enough to Matt Joynt that I could watch his guitar strings vibrate.
It was perfect.
I wish the lovers had been there.
After the show, we spent a very long night in one of Can's friends dorm rooms.
We woke up to tons of snow and horrible driving conditions and after fishtailing and having extreme transmission troubles, decided to just wait it out and get a hotel room after walking around downtown GR for quite some time.
So we spent the night at a Red Roof Inn.
And we played cards until both of us were so sleepy, a two person game of BS was the greatest thing on earth.
We then fell asleep to Mythbusters, woke up the next morning to even more snow and some especially good Bob Evans and came on home.
Her parents were so proud of her.
Mine didn't really care.
Whatever.
Also.
Tonight.
Was the first time I had legitimate doubts about moving.
They'll pass.
I just wish he could come with me.
We met up with a lot of other kids and I also got to meet some of her high school friends.
I don't know what it was but this show was especially good. Something about having Ross and Candis with me and knowing that Emily and Max were across the state enjoying themselves just as much. I don't know.
It felt so right standing close enough to Ross that his body was constantly brushing up against mine.
And seeing Can so happy to see her other friends.
And standing close enough to Matt Joynt that I could watch his guitar strings vibrate.
It was perfect.
I wish the lovers had been there.
After the show, we spent a very long night in one of Can's friends dorm rooms.
We woke up to tons of snow and horrible driving conditions and after fishtailing and having extreme transmission troubles, decided to just wait it out and get a hotel room after walking around downtown GR for quite some time.
So we spent the night at a Red Roof Inn.
And we played cards until both of us were so sleepy, a two person game of BS was the greatest thing on earth.
We then fell asleep to Mythbusters, woke up the next morning to even more snow and some especially good Bob Evans and came on home.
Her parents were so proud of her.
Mine didn't really care.
Whatever.
Also.
Tonight.
Was the first time I had legitimate doubts about moving.
They'll pass.
I just wish he could come with me.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Mix?
I'm still wearing my shin guards.
Good Bad Good Bad Bad.
I hate high school.
I hate parents.
I hate whining.
Good news:
Anathallo show with my lifer tomorrow night
Ross. In general. He's perfect.
Emily and Max's two year tomorrow. =]
I'm shooting a wedding! With a camera!
Pastor Rob.
Mr. Abbott.
Chem friends.
Bad news:
Every single thing else.
Which includes:
Family.
Every subject in school. (minus art since I'm working with linoleum tiles again finally)
Family again.
I missed my soccer game. Which is equivalent to about 12 dollars.
My next one is at 7:55 AM on a Sunday.
My room is taking even longer to clean.
I've been extremely distant from all of my friends for a looooong time.
My head's in GR, which isn't good, considering the rest of my body is still stuck in what I'll refer to as purgatory.
I have such trivial problems mixed with such huuuge ones.
I should have listed the bad things first so I didn't end on such a low note.
This is becoming unbearable.
Good Bad Good Bad Bad.
I hate high school.
I hate parents.
I hate whining.
Good news:
Anathallo show with my lifer tomorrow night
Ross. In general. He's perfect.
Emily and Max's two year tomorrow. =]
I'm shooting a wedding! With a camera!
Pastor Rob.
Mr. Abbott.
Chem friends.
Bad news:
Every single thing else.
Which includes:
Family.
Every subject in school. (minus art since I'm working with linoleum tiles again finally)
Family again.
I missed my soccer game. Which is equivalent to about 12 dollars.
My next one is at 7:55 AM on a Sunday.
My room is taking even longer to clean.
I've been extremely distant from all of my friends for a looooong time.
My head's in GR, which isn't good, considering the rest of my body is still stuck in what I'll refer to as purgatory.
I have such trivial problems mixed with such huuuge ones.
I should have listed the bad things first so I didn't end on such a low note.
This is becoming unbearable.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Number One.
I don't know how long this is gonna stick around.
But its just gonna be a few thoughts once in a while.
Not a daily update.
Although it may turn into that gradually without me realizing.
Which ties me into something that's on my mind.
People changing.
It sounds like so much of a teen issue that I don't even want to acknowledge the fact that its bothering me.
But I am a teenager.
So I can say that its really bothering me.
But not like the annoying type of bother. No.
This is the stuff that really makes me worry.
Its troubling. And unsettling.
And I don't like it.
Unrelated note:
Anathallo Friday. =]
But its just gonna be a few thoughts once in a while.
Not a daily update.
Although it may turn into that gradually without me realizing.
Which ties me into something that's on my mind.
People changing.
It sounds like so much of a teen issue that I don't even want to acknowledge the fact that its bothering me.
But I am a teenager.
So I can say that its really bothering me.
But not like the annoying type of bother. No.
This is the stuff that really makes me worry.
Its troubling. And unsettling.
And I don't like it.
Unrelated note:
Anathallo Friday. =]
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