I went to Holland this weekend to see my third Anathallo show with Candis.
We met up with a lot of other kids and I also got to meet some of her high school friends.
I don't know what it was but this show was especially good. Something about having Ross and Candis with me and knowing that Emily and Max were across the state enjoying themselves just as much. I don't know.
It felt so right standing close enough to Ross that his body was constantly brushing up against mine.
And seeing Can so happy to see her other friends.
And standing close enough to Matt Joynt that I could watch his guitar strings vibrate.
It was perfect.
I wish the lovers had been there.

After the show, we spent a very long night in one of Can's friends dorm rooms.
We woke up to tons of snow and horrible driving conditions and after fishtailing and having extreme transmission troubles, decided to just wait it out and get a hotel room after walking around downtown GR for quite some time.
So we spent the night at a Red Roof Inn.
And we played cards until both of us were so sleepy, a two person game of BS was the greatest thing on earth.
We then fell asleep to Mythbusters, woke up the next morning to even more snow and some especially good Bob Evans and came on home.

Her parents were so proud of her.
Mine didn't really care.



Whatever.

Also.
Tonight.
Was the first time I had legitimate doubts about moving.
They'll pass.
I just wish he could come with me.