Last few days-

I'm so much more in my element photographing bands than anything else.
Besides maybe freak nature things.
You don't have to worry about them posing. Musicians are almost always so caught up in what they're doing, they don't cheese it for the camera.
My least favorite thing is looking through a view finder and seeing people act differently now that my camera is up.
I take pictures to capture people's spirits, not the wall they put up when I'm holding the camera to my face.

Which is why I really want to go into photographing bands for a career.
I know its not as stable as other aspects of photojournalism.
And my dreams of National Geographic will never die.
I just feel like I belong right where I am and everything is perfect when I'm listening and watching and capturing at a show.

Speaking of my element, I've lost it these past few days.

I've been so uncomfortable sharing some things with some people and being sick isn't helping.
I'm constantly thinking I'm going into some weird feverish ramble about nothing.
But I think I'm always kind of like that.

But being sick is especially bad right now.
It JUST got nice outside and all I want to do is play in the sun.
I never realize what a horrible effect winter has on me until I see the sun shining through the clouds on the first days of spring.
If Grand Rapids wasn't planned and perfect, I would get out of Michigan so fast.
All this seasonal stuff really gets to me.
If only Global Warming would take full effect and the sun would be shining on my face year round.
Or as an extremely less selfish and horrible alternative, I could move to Florida.
I've always been fond of shuffleboard and I have a friend of my mom's to live with.
But the ocean scares me to death.






I think I'm just going to have to deal with things.
Sort some things out.
Enjoy my life instead of always wondering what else I could do with it.
And make up my mind on one thing in particular.

I think I'll go for a walk today.
I won't have to wear a jacket cause my core temperature is a million and one.
Go outside.